when you try your best but you don't succeed

another day spent at home. we actually went out. for like an hour. was planning on watching fantastic mr fox but it wasn't exactly available. so after lunch, at about 1.30pm, we walked about a bit. a bit being going into diva. and that was about it. sat outside hudsons for awhile deciding if we should go somewhere and came home in the end. this extended holiday is turning out to be not as fun as i imagined. bah.

so aussie opens starts today. sharapova lost. first match of the day. not very surprising in my opinion. she's had quite a few early round exits recently is i'm not wrong. murray won, i think. fell asleep after the first set or so. sadly, nadal won. but that was quite obvious. tomorrow's going to be an exciting day! serena, venus, federer. woohoo! sadly, can't be there to watch cause we're selling one of the beds and the person is coming to collect it tomorrow. bah. so now we're waiting for thursday to see how it goes. tickets for the night matches are already sold out. and knowing my luck, federer is prolly playing the night matches. therefore it's sold out. life sucks i swear. i HAVE to watch federer play. i just HAVE to. hopefully, we'll get lucky and federer will once again be playing the morning matches and we'll get to watch him. but my logic is that they switch it around? morning matches one day and night matches the other. bah. my luck/life sucks.

my stupid itunes is still giving me problems. i've done every single bloody thing suggested in the itunes help page and it is still not working. i'm so damn frustrated. thinking of downloading itunes again but what if that doesn't work and i've just wasted another 80mb. i hate how aussie internet works. seriously. and i can't find any place with free wifi. could you not be so cheapo for goodness sake! argh.

ok. enough ranting for today. i'm sure there are people out there in worse off situations than me. i should be thankful. yes. getting the keys for my new home, whee!, this wednesday. quite exciting. can't wait to move in. can't wait to decorate! i'm going to stick all my photos and all my polaroids on the wall. it's going to be awesome. yes ah.

alrighty then. that's about it for today. shall go read the news or something.

joyful sorrow clementine

don't know why but that song suddenly popped into my head. i remember we were singing it while taking a break from mahjong on my last night in singapore before coming over to melbourne. zhenghong actually knew the lines to the song and we were all super amazed. him being the most chinese person i know. knowing lines to an english song. it was quite funny.

my stupif itunes is giving me problems. and so is my ipod. technically. i can't seem to install/sync apps into my ipod. the first time i did it it was ok. but subsequently, it never starts when i sync it into my ipod. i have to restart my stupid ipod and sync all my bloody songs into the ipod before it'll work again. which is amazingly time consuming and very annoying. i am not restarting my ipod ever again cause i like my high score on coldplay tap tap revenge, thank you very much. i hope itunes works now so i can try and see if the stupid app synching is still being a bitch. anyone else has that problem?

was supposed to wake up at 11am today. read on roger federer's facebook fan page that some tennis players were having some fund raising event at melbourne park today at 2pm to raise funds for the haitian earthquake. i was soooooo eager to go. but i didn't hear my alarm and woke up at 2.11pm instead. was really quite annoyed with myself. i'm never setting the alarm on my ipod again. it's not my ipod's fault, i know. i just keep forgetting to increase the volume before i go to sleep and therefore never hear it. daaaaamn annoying. really wished i had woken up on time and went to melbourne park. one, it's for a good cause. two, i get to meet roger federer. ok not meet, see. but still! how cool is that. and oh yes, it WAS venus williams we saw the other day. DANG. should totally have asked for a photo. she looked friendly enough. zzzzzzzzz.

speaking of famous people i would love to meet, i shall list them down. just for the fun of it. hur hur. not in any particular order.

1) guy berryman, the bassist (is that how you spell it? 1 or 2 s?) from coldplay. well actually, yes. i think he would be the first famous person i would like to meet. like i told my sister the other day, i think i would just die if i ever see guy berryman in person. and no, the concert i attended didn't count since i was sooooo far away from him. boo.

2) chris martin, the lead singer of coldplay. duh. who wouldn't want to meet him.

3) roger federer. COULD HAVE HAD A TODAY! argh.

4) angelina jolie. haha. don't know why, but ya.

5) brad pitt. c'mon. it's brad pitt.

6) leonardo d'caprio. i hope that's how you spell his name. damn.

7) ryan gosling! omgomgomgomgomg.

i'm trying to remember who i follow on twitter.

8) raymond lam! my oh-so-handsome ah ho from moonlight resonance. sooooo hansum. meeting him would make me so hoi sum. hur hur hur.

9) simon pegg. i think he's hilarious. run fat boy run!

10) OMG. how could i forgot the absolutely awesome NEIL PATRICK HARRIS. go for barney!

11) the cast of glee. whee!

hmm. yea. that's about it for now i think. may add on later if i ever think of anymore.

i don't understand the weather in melbourne. like seriously. according to my laptop, it's 12 degrees celcius (shit. how many spelling errors am i going to make today.) right now. like wth! it's suppose to be summer. hello! not that i'm complaining. i much rather it be cool/cold. but still! it's freaking summer. and the next thing you know, it'll be 40+ degrees and we'll be hearing of bush fires again. omggggg. and i'm still trying to get use to the excessive amount of daylight. it's just weird. totally totally weird.

ok. i think that's enough ranting for today. shall go try to work on itunes now.

till the next time then!

i love rock and roll

yes, i have decided that all my post titles shall be lines from songs. you may find it pretentious and all that crap. but hell, i don't really care. so there. i went with "i love rock and roll" today cause the song is pretty much permanently lodged in my head for the rest of the night. been playing guitar hero 3 on my handphone for the past hour or so and there you go. i don't suppose any other post titles would be apt for now.

so anyways. i'm alone at home right now. the sister went out for dinner with her friends. she said she won't be home too late. ya right. ok. i know i'm sounding crazy. but i'm bored! and i'm waiting for her to come home so we can continue out wonderful hongky drama, ka ho yuet yuen, or better known in english as moonlight resonance. i'm bored. and therefore i'll prolly fall asleep soon.

went down to chapel today. wasn't much to see actually. except for that GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS (it looks funny when typed in caps 3 times) leather-esque coat from dotti. oh m gee (as saffy would say), i totally looked the coolest in it. hahaha. yes i know, so full of myself. but seriously! it was the coolest jacket ever la. but the sister says it's totally not worth 90 bucks cause it's not even real leather which i totally agree. but it is still the coolest thing ever and it's got my freaking size! that's the bloody worse part. arghhhhhh. now i really wish i was FILTHY FILTHY rich. bah.

that aside. i was reading my email just now. i'm still receiving twe alumni, or as i like to call us, twa, updates. yes, i know my sentence structures are terrible. that aside, it was amazingly depressing when i read the "closing line".

"So once again, please reply the mail if anything, or better, sms me. You can reach me at xxxxxxxx, or you can sms Kang Zhuang, at xxxxxxxx"

when it used to say:

"Yep, that's about it. Any other queries, please feel free to ask me or Yimei.

Rickson: xxxxxxxx
Yimei: xxxxxxxx"

yes, i know it was by my own choice to leave all that behind and yes i know i'll make new friends but it's just so depressing. i really miss my alumni. i don't know. ahwell. i just really love my alumni and it kind of sucks that i will not be able to play with them in the upcoming concert. we may not be the best alumni, but it doesn't really matter. at least we all like each other. we're all civil with each other. we can have fun with each other. and i think that's what's important. alumni is to have fun isn't it. having performances are important, yes. but i don't know. i think i go back for alumni because of the friends i have there. yea, that's what alumni means to me.

ok. i have to stop emo-ing already. so yes, that's about it for today. i hope my sister comes home soon before i fall asleep.

OHOHOH! i'm convinced i saw venus williams today at wittner in chapel. my sister wouldn't believe me. but yea, i do admit that kind of doesn't look extremely like venus. could be one of the non playing williams sisters. but still! i'm pretty convinced it's venus. i shall see. really hoping to be able to watch at least one match this australian open. live, not on tv. it'll be the coolest. like the dotti jacket. i swear.

ok then. goodnight world.

and so it is.

i realise that my blog name, is it?, kind of makes it sound like i'm a new born or something. musings of a new life. haha. yes well. coming up with a blog name was impossible. everything seems to be taken. and so i decided with something. well. i don't know how to put it.

my sister told me to start a blog. again. i told her nobody would read it. and she said she would. so here i am. starting a new blog. after my failed one which stemed back to secondary school angst. that sounds wrong. and there was the other failed one which came about because i wanted to read my sister's blog which she locked. so tadah. here i am. once again blogging.

so, musingsofanewlife? i figured that this year would be kind of a "new life" for me. a start of something new. which is totally a song title from high school musical. i know. disgusting. but ya. i'm starting out a new life i suppose. here in melbourne. leaving behind the comforts of home and starting on this new journey. so yes. this is the musingsofanewlife. that looks like a totally alien word. so there.

i have actually been here, in good ol' melbourne, for awhile now. yes. it has been one month already. i just realised. the past one month has felt like a holiday mostly. like back in 2008 and june 2009 when i came to visit my sister. a one month holiday. but nope, no holiday this time. i'm here to stay for good. well for the next year at least.

sometimes, it still feels kind of strange to wake up and be seeing all these strange things. things that weren't always there when i wake up. i still find it pretty amazing that i'm actually doing this. actually studying in melbourne. yes, i know i should prolly get over it already. but still. it won't be for another 2 months or so before i start school. so yes, more bumming around for me then. i've gotten very used to the bumming life style. i'm afraid i won't be able to readapt to going back to school. crap. but that comes later. so we'll just take it one day at a time shall we.

so being here makes you miss everything back home alot. like my sister said the other time, nobody ever says they miss their family, they only miss their friends. so i shall say it then. i do so miss my mum. i definitely don't miss her nagging. and scolding. but i kind of miss her presence. it's comforting to know you always have someone to go home to. if you know what i mean. and i really miss that silly smelly dog back home. oh what i would give to be able to hug her again. sigh. i miss my dad. but i've gotten quite used to not having him around. all my life it was that way. so yea. but i do still miss him. not his scolding and nagging, of course. but yes. you understand what i mean.

and i miss my friends. long gone are the times when we could just meet up any day/night for supper or whatsoever. yes. i miss being able to just call anyone of them up and yak away. i know they'll still be there when i return at the end of the year. but there's no denying things are going to change. and it's going to suck when that happens. but hopefully, things won't change too drastically.

here are my beautiful friends.


my crazy awesome friends from starbucks. i strangely miss making coffee more than you can imagine.


my lovely jc band mates. to whom i think i bitch the most to.


my awesome awesome awesome secondary school mates. who have known me almost half my life and have tolerated all my crap for the past 7 years or so.


my fantastic alumni mates. who give me a reason to get out of bed that early on a saturday morning.

yes. i miss them all like crap. almost, ALMOST, wished i could be home now. ahwell. and yes, i'll find a way to tweek the stupid format the next time.

so yes. i think i shall end off here. in about 2 weeks time, my sister will be going home. tragically, it feels like everyone is leaving me behind. yes, very dramatic. almost like some hongky drama. but yea well. i guess it's about time i'm left alone to grow up.

my sister was supposed (kind of) to apply for pr/tr/whatever to work here for prolly the next 2 years or so. but the charges were quite horrendously high and the job prospects weren't exactly awesome. so after much delibertion, she decided not to stay. which makes me really sad. cause maybe, just maybe, of all the things i'll miss the most back home, i think i'll miss my sister the most. (yes i know, aww. i'm not just writing this because i know you'll be reading it. ha haha ha ha ha. you know, the ted mosby laugh when he sees naked women) it's been a long 2 and a half years without her at home. i had to bear the brunt of my mum's nagging, which she now has to. ha. but other than that, it was fun to have my sister around. sure we scream at each other all the time. but still, good times good times. i miss going shopping with her. haha. i was hoping she would be able to stay on in melbourne. cause i missed her. but ahwell. guess it'll be another few more years and who knows what after that. yes, i suppose it's time for me to grow up and not depend on my elder sister anymore.

so yes. here we shall start my musingsfromanewlife where i shall dump more angsty, bitchy, emo and altogether nonsensical crap from my everyday life.
so happy reading, yiszetan.

and for the rest of you: why hello there, stranger.